The Birth of a Mother

Ten years ago today my life changed beyond recognition

Ten years ago today I endured the worst pain I have ever felt in my life

Ten years ago today I endured more indignity than anybody should

Ten years ago today I endured the scariest experience that has ever happened to me

Ten years ago today I felt out of control, bullied, lost and alone

Ten years ago today the smile on my face in the photo is an empty one of relief not happiness

Ten years ago today I stopped being ‘me’ and became ‘us’

Ten years ago today I left my whole career behind

Ten years ago today I cried more tears than I ever had before

Ten years ago today I lost my name, I am no longer ‘Sarah’, I am ‘my son’s mum’

Ten years ago today I lost my financial freedom

Ten years ago today I lost control

Ten years ago today I lost old friends

Ten years ago today I lost my organised life and the ability to always be early or on time

Ten years ago today I lost some of my dreams

Ten years ago today I lost my body – never to be the same again, marked forever

Ten years ago today  I lost my own mind, I became naive, unsure and vulnerable

Ten years ago today I lost my confidence to make my own decisions

Ten years ago today I lost spontaneity and mourned my old life

Ten years ago today I really missed my mum and dad
Ten years ago today I understood the meaning of life

Ten years ago today I felt complete

Ten years ago today I felt unconditional love

Ten years ago today I felt proud

Ten years ago today I knew my life would never be the same again

Ten years ago today I grew up

Ten years ago today I felt a connection with other women I never had before

Ten years ago today I cherished my new found responsibility

Ten years ago today I realised how shallow my life had been until this point

Ten years ago today I learnt to seize the moment

Ten years ago today I felt honoured

Ten years ago today I dreamed a new dream

Ten years ago today I learnt that materialistic things didn’t matter

Ten years ago today I discovered many new friends

Ten years ago today I changed – forever

Ten years ago today I found a new career passion, determined to change things for those behind me

Ten years ago today a new family was born

Ten years ago today was the day that defined me.

Ten years ago today my son was born

Ten years ago today I became a mother.

Ten years later I know it can be different, but am grateful for my journey and wouldn’t change a single thing, it has made me who I am.

 

Sarah

About SarahOckwell-Smith

Sarah Ockwell-Smith, Parenting author and mother to four.
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